This class has been such a learning experience for me. I have struggled writing the papers this semester, tried to give them my best, tried to re-write the same papers over and over hoping that with each draft I would discover a different perspective to explore to make it better. The first paper concerned me because and I wasn't pleased with my grade and as a Creative Writing major, I need to perform well in this technique course in order to get into one of the advanced workshops . I thought that was it. If no one wants to read what I have to say then what am I doing this for. I don't even want to pursue writing as a career. I think that the reality of this did not sink in until I started asking myself if I really thought of myself as a professor writer. Either way, I am pursuing this degree with everything I've got. I have loved to write since I could pick up pen to paper and I'm not going to discredit myself now by calling it quits.
I have spoken to the professor numerous times after class because I know that writing isn't just a one time deal. You workshop, revise, brainstorm all over again, and you try new things. Without others input, you'd be stuck on a Ferris wheel, going round and round only in the direction for which you see fit at the time. I do not think that the workshops we did in class were very beneficial because only 2 or 3 peers looked at your paper and wrote minor comments. I think that we weren't really aiming to improve everyone else's writing because we were so concerned with our own, at least I know I was. Because the topics we were given were so broad, everyone had their own interpretation of what was expected as well as in what ways to be approaching their individual papers. I thought what helped me the most was reading others essays because it allowed me to see so many different writing styles and techniques that I could use in my own writing. But with only usually the first draft being work shopped it made it harder for some people to really improve because they didn't have anyone see how the paper changed.
That's why I thought it was so important for me to reach out to Mrs. Skinner. I knew that as long as I kept writing, that she would keep pushing me. She may have sent me in all different directions but she made me think outside of the box. She is part of the reason I still have it in me to write about my personal life. Because I have been through so much and feel as if my story should be heard, nonfiction is really what I know best. I know writing about myself will help me grow, explore, mature, and improve through revision and reflection. This memoir piece coming up is a bit scary for me but I know I'll get through it. I hope that the revision process hasn't interfered with anyone's writing negatively, no matter how much time it takes to go back and fix it up, you're learning. Although it's time consuming revising and transforming my writing, I know its necessary because there is always room for improvement.
Happy writing to everyone! Try to finish out the semester strong :)